~Life depends on how you play it.~

Monday, November 10, 2008

i looked through my MSN contact list.. there are 105 people onlining now.. but i can't find one to talk my heart out~!! how sad is that~! i feel very sad now.. can't help crying.. i think something is wrong with my tear gland~

yesterday after church, i went to the hospital with my parents.. my parent's another friend gave birth to a baby boy last week.. but due to there is some water in the baby's lungs, the baby cannot breathe well.. so he needs a oxygen tank to support him..

my mum warned me about there will be a lot of tubes sticking in and out of the baby's body.. we have to see the baby through a transparent glass.. but when i saw the baby, i can't stop crying.. there are TWO big machines beside him.. tubes everywhere on the baby, with no clothes on.. he looks so small.. i think just like 2 of my hands join together.. his mum, sitting beside him.. crying and talking to him.. out of the sudden.. i feel that humans are really helpless~ althou how good the medical field are nowadays.. humans are still helpless~!!!!! HELPLESS~!!

WE SEEMS SO SMALL in this big world~ don't know what is going to happen next.. the parents try hard to help the kid.. bt nothing they can do.. God loves the family.. the baby just passed away.. it seems sad.. bt the baby don't need to suffer.. he is happy in God's hand..

*think think* can u imagine urself to be in this world onli for a week.. ?? the parents have high hopes in u.. thinking how handsome or prettty u r going to be after 5 more yrs.. thinking u r going to take care of them when they are old.. life is really unpredictable.. this small kid finish his travelling in a week..

i can't continue now.. sorry.~ take care all..

loves and hugs

Grace

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